have you ever felt angry? felt like you have no release? felt like you need an escape from the world? theres a way out. test how far you can go. compete against nature.
continue nothing. start nothing. be nothing. the easiest and most pain-free way to go through life is to not live at all. whats stopping you? how much do you really care about the world around you? the world that hates you simply for existing? why would they care? what would they do?
ask yourself these questions often. dwell on them. think about how they make you feel. dig yourself into a hole that you cant get out of. destroy yourself from the inside-out. dont go outside. dont sit in the sun. cover your windows and eat shit quality food so you become vitamin deficient. dont talk to anyone. dont show positive emotions to anyone.
become a shell of your old self. the way people around you show concern for you makes you feel good. it makes you feel powerful. you affect them so much while doing nothing at all. so what else could you do? how can you make them feel worse? how do you hurt them?
youve lost everything and youre falling apart. you wont get help because youre terrified to live after being dead for so long. the only time you feel good is when people tell you that you need help. theyre worried. it means they care. they care about you. they want the best for you.
youve thought about it. they wouldnt. they wouldnt care at all. can you blame them? what do you bring to their lives? youre surprised they care as it is. but they havent been saying much recently. they havent been coming over. they havent been calling. they gave up. they dont care anymore. theyre gone. they are nothing. you are nothing. so what do you do now?
you take your own life. you feel yourself fading away. you see nothing in front of you. you feel nothing around you. you become nothing. you are nothing. you are nothing.